Some of Life’s Most Underrated Activities..

1. A long, hot shower. Getting the water to a point of steaming hotness, closing your eyes until you’re relaxed..
2. Lie on your back and stare at the sky..
3. Indulging yourself with Chocolate Eclairs during the late hours of the long nights..
4. Waking up early morning and finding a mug of steaming hot tea/coffee next to you..
5. Receiving and opening gifts/courier packages 
6. Hours and hours of nothingness and laziness with your loved one(s).
7. Watching re-runs of your favourite sitcoms/movies the umpteenth time..
8. Standing or sitting all alone on your terrace, looking out at the world beyond..
9. Going through your Collectibles like your lifelong savings..
10. Playing the Silent Therapist
11. Waking up and saying “Wat the hell!!” to productivity or every other obligation..and going back to sleep.. Awesome!!
12. A potent combination of a Mug of Hot Tea and a Book.. :-))
13. Nighttime long drives with the windows down (with or without the music blaring)..
14. Staying inside your blanket during winter  (nights) feeling all warm and sluggish..
15. The ability to say a simple 'No' to the undeserved..
16. Making somebody smile or laugh (during their bad days)..
17. Wearing the freshly washed clothes and feeling their softness on to your body..
18. Seeing happiness on your loved ones' faces even on the smallest of things..
19. Peeling the sheets off your newly purchased products..
20. Please add one.. ;-)

"Once upon a time.. Happily ever after..", An UnReality

"Once upon a time.. Happily ever after.."..

The stories we kept hearing during our childhood, the novels we read during our adolescence, the movies that are being made and that we watch - are Fairy tales that do not come true..

Reality is much stormier. Much murkier. Much scarier..

Reality, it iz so much more interesting than living happily ever after..That one reality you have yet to fight, the one you have not met yet, the one you have not faced yet... more frightening and unpredictable of all.

"Frenemies"

Sometimes, it seems making new people/friendz is indeed a good (or better) way - to get rid of all the wrong people from our lives..
You put all your time and care and effort in your relationships you thought are honest and healthy.....But you realize that you are so wrong!!

It is better to utilise all that effort building new relationships (some of them might even turn out to be good!) - rather than wasting on the bad, rotten existing ones.. I mean, you cannot just spend your whole life(time)adjusting to people's weaknesses, insecurities, stupidity and moronic mis-perceptions/misinterpretations..

And these people are often (but not always, there are the "smart" ones who pretend to be weaklings too and the other way round) the "Weak" lot..

Weak individuals, who not only make their own lives miserable - but - more so - make the lives of their close ones unbearable.. Unbearably Miserable due to their sympathy-seeking, clingy, distorted minds/behaviour. Nobody can ever be good to them or be good enough for them, because these weaklings will always find some hidden drama or misgiving in every single action. They are better left alone or undergo some serious psychological treatment.
That's Type-1.

Talking about the Type-2s, the pretentious "Oh-I-am-so-hurt-please-save-me-from-drowning" lot..Now, they are the "smart" ones.. They need to be told very bluntly to just "cut the crap!" 

Type-3 - The weak-who-know-they-are-gutless-but-keep-a-mask-of-power to portray a different picture to fool the world.. A mix of Type-1 and Type-2..

And..

..They all could be a part of your life in the form of friends, colleagues, relatives, etc etc..OR they may not be that close to your life.
If they are not, then it iz easier to get rid of them..
If they are close to you, what do you do? What could you do??
You give your best in the relationship, and when it is still not enough for them, DECIDE..Take the step you never thought you would have to.. because they do not deserve it..they will eat up your other healthy relationships..and which relationship you think is more worthy and important??
As it is rightly said - "One rotten apple damages the other ones in the basket.."

Time does not heal..

Time is no good at healing.. It just covers up the scars with its blanket of the years passed by..

You cannot just sit back and feel safe and secure that you will no longer have the sadness, anguish, yearning, guilt, anger or fear - they might just jump on to you when you are least ready.. It is a "Time"-bomb waiting to get triggered by even the smallest of associations, memories of similar situations, incidents and people of course..

The pain may lessen (or does it?), but it never goes away..Hidden in our subconscious, becoming the deciding factors behind our future decisions or/and indecisiveness.. The wound heals, the emotional scar brought by it does not.. The deeper the knife goes, the more time it takes.. sometimes, it never heals, it kills!!

I am a Walnut tree!! ;-)

which means.....I am supposed to be "unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.."

Go to -> http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/9LBPga

Familiarity Breeds Contempt?!!

Powerful feelings motivates to step off the map and into uncharted lands..Whether or not you are completely ready for your next adventure, there is still a haunting familiarity to the landscape.. You cannot tell if you have actually been here before or if it was only in a dream.. Is it a good dream or a bad one..


It iz hard to prevent old memories from influencing the present moment..Your emotions are already intense; you really do not need any additional drama now. Nevertheless, denying your feelings just allows them to fester and creates even more challenging situations later..


Dispersing the buried tensions that bubble into your awareness is needed. 


I need to focus on the greater picture..


Letting my attention wander too far would not be rational because subtle clues are already revealing my future if I am alert enough to notice..

How the World Sees Us..

A brilliantly simple and honest reason behind how and why the world sees us the way they do...


"Your idea of me is fabricated with materials you have borrowed from other people and from yourself. What you think of me depends on what you think of yourself. Perhaps you create your idea of me out of material that you would like to eliminate from your own idea of yourself. Perhaps your idea of me is a reflection of what other people think of you. Or perhaps what you think of me is simply what you think I think of you.
"Our ability to be sincere with ourselves, with God, and with other men is really proportionate to our capacity for sincere love. And the sincerity of our love depends in large measure upon our capacity to believe ourselves loved. Most of the moral and mental and even religious complexities of our time go back to our desperate fear that we are not and can never be really loved by anyone."


- by Thomas Merton, No Man Is An Island


Sourced from http://thejohnstephens.blogspot.in/2010/10/how-do-you-see-others.html 

Those Small Little Factz of Life.......

1. Triangle shape sandwiches taste better than square sandwiches
2. Going through a tunnel always gives you a little thrill of excitement
3. Dancing and singing in the rain makes you feel like a 5-yr old
4. Getting mail makes you feel excited (even if you don't accept the fact - unless it is a stupid client's stupid mail)
5. You always feel the urge to sing along to your favourite song when you hear it on the radio
6. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside always makes you feel comfortable and safe
7. Having Popcorn alwayz reminds you of movies
8. Lemon always refreshes you
9. Some things - that you initially dislike - grow on you, over time
10. Sitting in front of a water body (lake/stream/sea) - alone or otherwise - makes you feel better
11. A quote I try to keep in mind when I cannot understand a hurtful behaviour (particularly from a person I do not expect such): "A person isn't who they are during the last conversation you had with them - they're who they've been throughout your whole relationship.." by Rainer Maria Rilke
12. People are made to be loved and things are made to be used; the confusion in this world is that people are being used & things are being loved..
13. Physical Pain is sometimes deliberately kept to do away with distractions like Emotional Pain..
14. Better the devil you know than the friend who iz a foe..

...to be continued...

Hitting the Nail Hard

Happiness in Simplicity, the Elegant Arrogance, the Disguised Manipulation, the Masked Offense, iPhone 6, the Glowing Darkness, the Systematic Chaos, the Noisy Silence, the Quite Noise, the Unpredictable Undependability, the Vulnerable Tyrant, the Sincere Pretence, the Studied Ignorance, the Twisted Truth, the Tedious Effortlessness, the Thoughtful Insensitivity, the Sensitive Brutality, the Unspoken, Untold Conversations.......

No matter how good your intentions are, people always end up seeing it as something awful because of their own cynicism and insecurities..
Experiencing the truth behind these great sayings:-
"True character is most accurately measured by 'how you treat those people who can do nothing for you or is of no profitable to your enterprise called life..."
"Most people will not take the trouble in finding out the truth, but are much more inclined to accept the first story they hear..”
"One thing I have learned in my time in politics is that if one of the parties is shameless, the other party cannot afford to be spineless.."


Yes, we all know that actions speak louder than words...but then these very actions start from thoughts seeded by experiences (good or bad).. But it is the action that is seen but not the thoughts that remained un-felt..


A litle bit of nostalgia, sweet though dreamy memories, unmasking of many unimaginable facades, lots of disappointments and disillusions.......


On a parting note,
"I am leaving the town to the invaders: increasingly numerous, mediocre, dirty, badly behaved, shameless tourists.. ~ Brigitte Bardot

Being Good is not a Virtue..

Some people think you are wonderful. Others don't think it; they know it. That's why they don't like you. Inwardly, they are envious. They recognise that you are exceptional and they try to find an easy way to make themselves feel better by identifying some key weakness in your personality. 


This makes them feel small (or not? or may be temporarily high??). It also makes them feel cross. Then, they get cross with themselves for being cross - and that makes them dislike you all the more!! (Ouuffff.. too much ;-) )


It is a task to manage them...and Patience is indeed a valuable virtue, but it is also important to make a stand when enough is enough. If others are delaying you in an unacceptable way…then itz high time……..

Itz her, Itz her, Itz her.......

You wish that you didn't always have to be the one who brings up the important issues that everyone else avoids.. 
...and gets blamed for it!!


You would like to be light and easy today, but you keep returning to a harsh reality that lurks behind the rainbows and unicorns..
Unfortunately, no one else sees things through your eyes, like you do - through others'.. 

That's My Way of Doing Things!!

Do not feel stressed and upset by the fact that you aren't getting the behaviour you very rightly deserve for the things you do..
Perhaps others are so used to you doing the work that they don't even realize just how much you do for them anymore.. and that is their problem - not yours.

Nothing would seem to be clicking for you the way you want...
Your rational mind tells you that everything is in place, things are fine, and that you have a green light to go ahead with all of your plans. But,
.........There is a small voice inside you, however, that is suggesting otherwise..

Perhaps you have an inkling that your plan is flawed in some way.....

Perhaps you are trying to ignore a certain voice, pain in your heart by keeping it a secret from others, when in reality, you need to let it out to the world....

Sound easy but I know you would not do it...as it goes against your values and principles (people may call you a fool/idealistic - same thing??) but you stand for your values - no matter what..

Negative behaviour is their problem - not yours..

Weekly Digest..after 2 Monthz!!

Learning to say NO, nicely..Finalllyy signing the on-time register ;-P ... called a Maverick by some.. reading about a 1000 pages over the weekend to create something.. with the distracting Quite Noise in my head... Reading about my first workplace going digital (and stopping their centuries-old print-version) making me feel real old (*sniff sniff*)..... Being forever patient with the tragically over-confidents and ignorants of the world..... spending sometime with the beauty and the beast....Excellent Lamb chops.........

Wat a week!! and yet, more to come......!!!!!


"You know, a song is like a kid. You bring it up. And sometimes something you thought was going to be fantastic, by the time it's finished, is a bit of a disappointment.." ~~ Phil Collins

Rationality??

You may be fed up with someone who does not respect your boundaries and it might be necessary to take a stand - some day..
Although you know that being adaptable is the mature thing to do (which you are incidentally), your annoyance could build until it transforms into anger because you are tired of always assuming that things will improve..(which they would not)..

It is like - you don't drink coffee very often, a few sips of latte will get you buzzing. If you're a regular drinker, you may need a triple-espresso before you notice a difference. We develop a greater tolerance towards almost anything we are frequently exposed to. You have been through a lot of tough times in your life. You can thus put up with an impressive amount of trouble before you reach your limit. Something, though, is now pushing you close to the edge of your endurance. You are being stretched........

Do not wait until you lose your temper; Express your feelings while you still can communicate in a rational manner..

Lies, Ludicrosities, Love......Life

A painting by D H Lawrence

(www.deceptology.com/2010/04/lies-about-love-10-fixed-lines-on.html)

Lies About Love


We are all liars, because 
the truth of yesterday becomes a lie tomorrow, 
whereas letters are fixed, 
and we live by the letter of truth. 
The love I feel for my friend, this year, 
is different from the love I felt last year. 
If it were not so, it would be a lie. 
Yet we reiterate love! love! love! 
as if it were a coin with fixed value 
instead of a flower that dies, and opens a different bud. 
..........David Herbert Richards Lawrence (D. H. Lawrence)


Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet......
The most exciting thing is not doing it. If you fall in love with someone and never do it, it's much more exciting....
........Andy Warhol




The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.
Almost all the time, you tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. 

This only looks like love.

....Invisible Monsters (1999) by Chuck Palahniuk


There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.
......C.S. Lewis - The Four Loves

True Leader - A Rare Case...

You may be doing well and have a list of people listening to you, but that alone does not make you a leader.
People are not numbers you can just add on your email list, downline or your company. They are people with dreams and goals like yours. As a true leader, it should be your goal to lead people to where they want to be...

True leaders, however, are not average people because once you become a leader, your thoughts, actions and achievements will be above average, because you will be reacting differently than the average person.

True leaders have a desire to take others to the top with them, and are not afraid of competition. They are not struck with envy and panic when some of their followers become leaders themselves.
If you are a true leader, you should encourage your followers to become leaders themselves...

And, which is an extremely rare occurence...I have not seen "many"...

True leaders are not those whose "words are without means" - True leaders stand up to and hod on to wat they say and believe in..


Article Source and Praphrasing: http://EzineArticles.com/940863

My strength, not my nemesis..

My hard work being ignored and forgotten (purposely or not??) and it was my lack of being politically correct all the time that becomes my nemesis at ....... everywhere..Either you ride, or you don't..

I will continue riding..No matter wat..

"The Stranger"

by BILLY "Awesome" JOEL


Well we all have a face
That we hide away forever
And we take them out and show ourselves
When everyone has gone
Some are satin, some are steel
Some are silk and some are leather
They're the faces of the stranger

But we love to try them on
Well, we all fall in love
But we disregard the danger
Though we share so many secrets
There are some we never tell
Why were you so surprised
That you never saw the stranger

Did you ever let your lover see
The stranger in yourself?
Don't be afraid to try again
Everone goes south
Every now and then
You've done it, why can't someone else?
You should know by now
You've been there yourself

Once I used to believe
I was such a great romancer
Then I came home to a woman
That I could not recognize
When I pressed her for a reason
She refused to even answer
It was then I felt the stranger
Kick me right between the eyes

Well, we all fall in love
But we disregard the danger
Though we share so many secrets
There are some we never tell
Why were you so surprised
That you never saw the stranger
Did you ever let your lover see
The stranger in yourself?

Don't be afraid to try again
Everyone goes south
Every now and then
You've done it why can't someone else?
You should know by now
You've been there yourself

You may never understand
How the stranger is inspired
But he isn't always evil
And he isn't always wrong
Though you drown in good intentions
You will never quench the fire
You'll give in to your desire
When the stranger comes along..

Old Classic Indian Adz - Love them!!

Old Classic Indian Ad of Cadbury - 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVChyy_moiM&feature=feedwll&list=WL


Old Classic Indian Ad of Cadbury - 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=CMmCkJBUnKs

Cadbury 3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=uuDKvYYMjsM

Dhara Commercial - jalebi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PbV5Y5KJCUs&feature=related

Titan Advertisement (OLD) Aishwarya Rai - Doordarshan
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=mq-zseyQ9ek

Bajaj Scooter Commercial
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUX7KmOSbrg&feature=fvwp&NR=1

Bajaj Sunny Zip
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPCcB81RmJc


Gold Spot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=knZpch5N30Y&feature=related


Lehar Pepsi - Juhi Chawla/Remo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmrNqJNW8t4&NR=1

Yeh hi hai right choice baby - classic Pepsi TVC
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=O2kMLasc1jI

Lehar 7UP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=26CVnK6zB38

Freedom comes at a cost..

You crave your independence now, but real freedom might command a very high cost..
Still, you're tempted to speak your truth, even if you have to deal with the fallout from what you say..
I will continue to stay on the message.. I give a damn when I am honest...
Sharing exactly how you feel might not lead to the outcome you expect, but you will likely end up being pleasantly surprised if you keep your heart open...

:-))

Never become the Victim of your Own Sentimentz..

You end up becoming a victim of your own sentiments just because you attach yourself emotionally to otherz.. You rarely get a true friend, forget getting a true lover and a partner for life!!?
The more sensitive you are, the more you suffer,..
You can’t avoid that even if you want to..
You give all your heart to everything you do (or did??).. but disappointmentz is all you get.. Do you expect too much?? Iz it not human to expect??

Watever..

Follow your own dreamz - Uninvited..

..because nobody other than you will realise the importance of your thoughts, dreamz and expressions more than you - yourself, your own self.. The passion and the interest and the love you feel for your "baby" (idea and vision) cannot ever be felt as deeply by otherz..
You are your own parent..

I am just ME... (part-II)

I am a paradox...

Sometimes I love the crowd and sometimes the solitude...I can be totally focussed in a crowd and I can feel extremely suffocated while alone...I can be feel very lonely in a crowd and I can be absolutely loving my own company without feeling any solitude... I work like a corporate but want the culture to be bohemian...

I hate the stereotypes...

I build a wall around me - NOT to block people to come into my life - but - to see who cares enough and is committed enough to climb that wall...

Memories and mementos (tangibles and intangibles) make an intergral part of my life...

I take time to let people into my inner circle...Trust is something that doeznot come easily to me...Life haz taught me a lot...

I am alwayz having 2 conversations with myself - external (verbal) and internal.. sometimez visualzed.....

I am NOT a morning person...

I love the rains - walking and splashing... wow!!! (and the tears, unseen!!)

I do not forget anything - good and bad...

Almost everything can be rectified (or at least can be approached) with a laugh or a smile...

I am a Planner ("wink" "wink") by nature (my friendz would know!!) ... I have to plan beforehand, I have to know thingz (everything!!!) to plan... I can go crazy if thingz donot work out accordingly...

I like to do thingz in a certain way...my way!!!

Either I like it or I donot!!! No in-betweens...

You are faced with same situations (mostly non-positive) with different people at different places...Same situations, different dayz..

I give a damn even if people hate it...because I am gonna share my thoughts instead of blindly praising and nodding to ideas I donot think will work, I donot believe in..
If that meanz not being a part of the popular crowd, so be it!!

I love capturing moments - people, thingz, places, nature... In short, I am hopelessly in love with my 5-years-old camera..

"I may not be perfect but parts of me are pretty awesome.." ;-))

"Every morning I start with a drink from my cup of sunshine, to remind myself of who I am before I step into the world of "this is who we think you are.." ~ by Dodinski

to be continued...

"We fall in Love, only once.."

The first few paragraphs of a love story that takes place over a number of years and in a number of places, including Scotland and Australia from the manuscript of Alexander McCall Smith

"There is a saying that we fall in love once in our lives, and once only. It is as attractive a notion as it is misleading – the idea that there is one great love in the lives of each of us; one chance at the happiness that triumphant love can bring.

Most of us do not believe this to be true, because we are realistic, and because that view of love simply does not match our experience.

"When we are young we may fall in and out of love within weeks, within days perhaps; we may think that love will last forever but, as Auden says in his incomparable Funeral Blues, on that we are proved wrong. So love grows cold and is forgotten, as everybody else but the lovers themselves knew it would, to be replaced in due course by a new love. That is how it is for most people, at least when they are young, as the people in this story happen to be.

For some people though – and there are not very many of them – it is quite different. Their first glimpse of love convinces them that the person with whom they have fallen in love is unlike anybody else, that this person, this man or woman, this boy or girl, is meant for them and no other; that this love is destined to be.

To hold such a view of love is to court disillusionment: because by the very nature of things such devotion is unlikely to be reciprocated.

One of the tragedies of great loves is that there are two people involved, and two people rarely feel the same way about something forever.
Occasionally, though, very occasionally, a first love may endure.

Such things enthral us because we want to believe in happy endings; we want to think that there are people who, yearning after something with all their heart, eventually get what they want – or come close to getting it.

How wonderful it must be, we think, to find yourself with the perfect mate, your person, the one who transforms your everyday world, suffuses it with some sort of light, your own, uniquely powerful vision of Eros; one who is more beautiful and beguiling than any other you could possibly imagine; who thinks better thoughts, who simply counts for more, for everything really, who makes the world suddenly seem more precious.

And how miraculous that this should last; should survive the unglamorous grind of getting by, should overlook the exhaustion of your conversation, should tolerate the dishevelment of the morning self, should surmount the indignities that go with simply being a person.."

The Irony of Life..

Happiness in Simplicity, the Elegant Arrogance, the Masked Offense, iPhone 6, the Glowing Darkness, the Noisy Silence..

“A lot of times, people don’t know what they want until you show it to them.." - Steve Jobs

Wat Keeps Us from Experiencing the Present and Holding the Future Back??

- Fear of the past repeating in the future
- Fear arising from the negative experiences we had in the past
- Thinking that the Best Offense is the Best Defense (and vice versa)
- Putting up a Mask that Hidez your True Feelingz
- Tend to hold on your (negative) feelingz
- Worried that if you share your feelings, others wouldn't understand and love you..
- Feeling uncomfortable and insecure with verbalizing emotions

"Only by acceptance of the past, can you alter it.." - T. S. Eliot

"Some rise by sin, and some by virtue fall.."

"It is understandable that men might seek to hide their vices from the eyes of people whose judgment they respect. But there are men who hide their virtues from the eyes of monsters. There are men who apologize for their own achievements, deride their own values, debase their own character—for the sake of pleasing those they know to be stupid, corrupt, malicious, evil."

---Return of the Primitive, 135

I feel like a robot!!

Sometimes I just feel like, quittin I still might
Why do I put up this fight, why do I still write

Sometimes it's hard enough just dealin with real life
Sometimes I wanna jump on stage and just kill mics
And show these people what my level of skill's like
sometimes I just hate life

Somethin ain't right, hit the brake lights
Case of the stage fright, drawin a blank like
Da-duh-duh-da-da, it ain't my fault
Great then I falls, my insides crawl
and I clam up (wham) I just slam shut

Sometimes I get upset, cause I ain't blew up yet
It's like I grew up, but I ain't grow me two nuts yet
Don't gotta rep my step, don't got enough pep

The pressure's too much man, I'm just tryin to do what's best
And I try, sit alone and I cry
Yo I won't tell no lie, not a moment goes by

Sometimes I feel like I'm just bein pulled apart
From each one of my limbs,

It's enough to just make me wanna jump out of my skin

Sometimes I feel like a robot, sometimes I just know not
what I'm doin I just blow, my head is a stove top
I just explode, the kettle gets so hot..

--Eminem

Absolut Truth..

The easiest thing to be in the world is you. The most difficult thing to be is what other people want you to be. Don't let them put you in that position...

A little sincerity is a dangerous thing, and a great deal of it is absolutely fatal..Oscar Wilde

Only the weak are cruel. Gentleness can only be expected from the strong...

"The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer.." ~Edward R. Murrow

‎"Everybody needs a hug... It changes your metabolism.." - Dr. Love (Leo ..)

‎"True intelligence operates silently. Stillness is where creativity and solutions to problems are found." Eckhart Tolle

‎"Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies" - Mother Teresa

‎"People are made to be loved and things are made to be used. The confusion in this world is that people are used and things are loved.."

‎"I still get wildly enthusiastic about little things... I play with leaves. I skip down the street and run against the wind.."

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around..

‎"Close both eyes, to see with the other eye." -- Rumi

There's more to the truth than just the facts..

You miss 100 percent of the shots you never take.. —Wayne Gretzky

"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.." Oscar Wilde

Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.." - Bob Marley

‎"Everything that is beautiful is cracked; that's how the light gets in.." - Leonard Cohen

“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells.. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life's realities..” - Dr. Seuss

‎"When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself." Wayne Dyer

‎"Though you may travel the world to find the beautiful, you must have it within you or you will find it not." Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Everybody is a genius..but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree.. it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.." Einstein

Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut, that held its ground..David Icke

“Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you.." Carl Gustav Jung

It isn’t that they can’t see the solution. It is that they can’t see the problem.. -- Gilbert Chesterton

By that sin fell the angels..William Shakespeare

The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer.. ~Edward R. Murrow

‎"The dearest ambition of a slave is not liberty but to have a slave of his own.." Sir Richard F. Burton, The Book of The Thousand Nights And A Night (1885)

‎"Courage is the most important of all the virtues, because without courage you can't practice any other virtue consistently..You can practice any virtue erratically, but nothing consistently without courage" - Maya Angelou

‎"People are made to be loved and things are made to be used. The confusion in this world is that people are used and things are loved.."


True leaders are not those whose "words are without means" - True leaders stand up to and hod on to wat they say and believe in..

Itz tricky if...

It's tricky if someone assumes that you will always drop your personal priorities when asked. You wouldn't mind offering your help, but you don't appreciate the pressure of being told what to do. There's no need to say yes and jump right in...
I might need time to consider all my options before responding - may be enough of a cue to convey that I donot want anyone to take advantage of my generosity and politeness (not weakness)..

My Current State of MiNDLessneSS..

CoNsTrUCTivE CriTICIsm - YEs; PUbLiC DisPLAy of AFFecTIon (pun intended) - NO

ElegAnT ArrOGanCE??

NOT ArrOGanCE - ITz DISGust, IRRItatION, DISAppOINtMeNt; MisJUDged;

I haTE yoU LIKE i lOVE You

YEH ZinDAGI naa MILEGi dOBARA!!

Old school sIMPLICITY

BrUtal SIMPLIcity of THOUGHt?? BRutaLLY Simple??? THouGHT??? Nayyyyyyyy..... BRUTAL...So SiMPLe...

BRutal KILLEr of PAtIENCE...

READ...rEAd.....ReADDDDDDDDD......till my EYEz pop out...


tHREADZ on my wrIST...GooD MEmorIEZ... those that remain INvisIBlEe.. but alive, AlwAYZ...

tHERE are places and People You Cannot Run AWAy from and CANNot ReturN TO. bECAUSE YOU have LOVED THEM ENTIRELY too much.
An invisible thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break..- Ancient Chinese Proverb

LaUGHING in THe FACe of AdVERsiTiEz...

Re-Discovering the Happy Me...

Despite all that happy energy, I have been finding it increasingly difficult to remain as optimistic... Perhaps this comes from being where I am and wat I am and having an (honest) opinion and how things work in the industry and across the world where we stay in...

Yeah... I am not happy the way thingz are going - work or personal... Even after putting in my best and not expecting much in return, I receive the worst.. Now and again, I realise that unless you stop expecting, you will continue to face disappointments... But strange, that I donot learn from my mistakes - Iznt it human to have expectations???
If you cannot give anything then atleast respect wat the other person is giving you without any questions being asked...
It seems to me that life doeznot treat you well if you are a human...

Am I wasting myself???
Wherez the happy, energetic, optimistic, confident me???

Living on Otherz Assumptionz...

Itz not easy...

I am alwayz expected to do something (work and personal) that requires me to set my personal agenda aside...
Even if I am committed to excelling at my job or in my personal relationships, I don't like it when others assume that I will say yes, even before I do. I hate this behaviour and assumptions...

Instead of immediately rearranging my previous schedule to jump into a new assignment, I have take a risk and share my concerns...

I am (not) Me?!!

“There are some things about myself I can’t explain to anyone. There are some things I don’t understand at all. I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after. I don’t know what my strengths are or what I’m supposed to do about them.. But if I start thinking about these things in too much detail, the whole thing gets scary. And if I get scared I can only think about myself. I become really self-centered, and without meaning to, I hurt people. So I’m not such a wonderful human being.” 


― Haruki Murakami

Are Willpower and Patience my Greatest Strengths??? or Weaknesses???

Back to square one... take to shot 1...

1. Take out all your ego problems, frustrations on me...
2. Pull me down (tell me I have "No Standing", eg...,) when I try to explain something to you guyz in a nice, polite, human way...
3. Do your best to prove that you are better and how less/lowly I am... It doez not matter whether you are at the Top or otherwise... It actually shows how low is your self-worth - I pity you people...
4. Show all your "Intelligence" and "Power of Thought" - not where and when it matters...
5. Make me the punching bag for all those thingz you people cannot do and/or say to people (you are scared of and have no guts) - behind that person's back. COWARDS!!!
6. Teaching what real "strategy" is all about ... and that "All hard work is just "plain shit... full of shit!!!" WOW!!! I already feel so better... wat you guyz gain outta it???
7. Aim by keeping the gun on my shoulder!!! How brave is that!!!??? the hot-shots of the-----!!!
8. Play the Blame-Game through me... how Professional iz that, now!!!
9. Manipulate, Politick, INSULT, - FEEL BETTER about yourselves...

Moral of the story: It does not matter who or how high you are - it is the "Core You" that eventually comes through...

Thank You Very Much...

Love The Way You Lie (Eminem ft. Rihanna)

So my song!!


So right...and so sad!!

Express the UnExpressed.....

There is a unique quality in human beings, which gives them an edge over all the other creations of God - the ability to express their feelings.

Expressing feelings or emotions is a simple way to understand information for, and about, us. The art of expressing a ‘feeling’ is nothing but the creative de-coding of how exactly the ‘feeling’ wants to come out, so that you can avoid ‘feeling’ the worse for it.

Sadly, in today’s materialistic and fast-paced world, expressing one’s feelings or emotions is often considered weak, or foolish. But, it should also be known that the inability to express one’s feelings is a facet of emotional immaturity.
Some are not very good at expressing their feelings or thoughts (even if they would like to)... And, some do not understand their own feelings.

The best way to express one’s feelings is to talk about them… share them with someone; this keeps us from sulking into depression...

But it often happens that, even through personal interactions, people are not able to express their feelings completely. They tend to hide or suppress what they are feeling either because they don’t want to reveal their feelings in front of anyone, or because they don’t know how to express them... Whatever may be the reason, the act of suppressing one’s feelings can cause mental agony - which is the major cause of many health issues today. Almost 80% of the health issues today are related to stress and other forms of emotional baggage.

Why???
Simply because we decide to quell our emotions rather than express them, and the only reason certain emotions (for e.g. anger or grief or irritation) become a problem is because they’re not properly dealt with. Dealing with emotions is nothing but really allowing oneself to feel the emotions as and when they arise within us... When we feel angry, we should allow ourselves to feel that anger, and vent it out in some form or the other, without causing any harm to others, or oneself. Or, it may lead to self-destruction...

Punch a pillow, do martial arts, hitting the ground with your bat or racket... But, if you are not comfortable with any of these, then there is a better alternative – penning your feelings down (which I am doing at the moment :P), or the modern alternative – typing your emotions!

Let all those suppressed emotions come alive in an MS-word File, or write an e-mail about them but don’t send it to anyone, or, better still, write a blog.... ;-)

When you search for words to express your emotions, you get in touch with your real feelings. Those who have a better understanding of their feelings, have better ways of coping up with both positive as well as negative emotions.

It is often said that the head and the heart should work together to take better decisions. The reason is that the heart feels (emotional thinker), whereas the head thinks (logical thinker). And when the heart feels, nothing is bad or wrong. So, it’s the logical thinker’s responsibility to help the emotional thinker to acknowledge and understand emotions, so that they can be dealt with properly...

Wat say!!!

(Source: The MAG)

Perfect in my Imperfections...

I am perfect in my imperfections, secure in my insecurities, happy in my pain, strong in my weaknesses, and beautiful in my own way...
I am "myself"........
Read it somewhere and quite liked it !

Psychotic Neurotic...

"A really competent and a self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything... Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity..." - by some American science-fiction writer...

"Neurotic" in this case may be taken to mean "emotionally excessive to the
point of being harmful."
Insecurity breeds jealousy. The two are not irrevocably linked. Insecurity can also lead to bullying, to lack of an ability to commit to a relationship, to various emotional problems...People learn to feel secure during their maturation, as they grow from children, through adolescence, into adulthood and beyond.
The key word is "learn" that fear is not just harmful, but unnecessary...

I 'll be Damned ...

Why nobody understands me???
Why do I have to make an extra effort, alwayz.........to make my feelings come across????????????
Why is it alwayz like this - "I have to understand everything, I have to compromise on everything, I have see that this person doesn't feel bad or that person feels good all the time, I have to take care as to who likes this and who doesn't like that........"
Why.............the hell!!!

Why shouldn't and couldn't anyone come and ask me - Shatovisha, do you like this? Or Shatovisha, why didn't u like that? Shatovisha, I do understand u..u need not explain anything.......Shatovisha, u need not worry...

Is it too much too ask? May be it iz...DAMN!!!

My Favourite Quotez...

"A house can have integrity, just like a person . . . and just as seldom."

"He who angers you, owns you!"

"The virtue of Patience is not much about how long one can wait. But, its all about how one behaves while waiting."

"A good pair of ears can drain dry a thousand tongues..." - Benjamin Franklin

"Eyes speak more when a heart starts listening to someone silently...And life seems to be more exiting when someone start reading eyes silently…"

"Anyone can catch your eye, but only someone really special can touch your heart..."

"I bet you've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.."

"The philosophy of one century is the common sense of the next..."

"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind."

"A woman is like a teabag. You never know how strong she is until she gets into hot water..." ------ Eleanor Roosevelt

"You haven't taken it away...I have given it to you..."

"He is not vulnerable to pain either -'lt only goes down to a certain point'.... There is just no way in which his enemies can inflict any pain on him, he can, by no means be destroyed..."

"I will die for you... I can kill you too" - Moi

"The best index to a person's character is ho...w he treats people who can't do him any good and how he treats people who can't fight back..."

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be..."- Douglas Adams

"The greatest thing in the world is to know how to belong to oneself..." - Michel de Montaigne

"I, at any rate, am convinced that He does not throw dice..." - Albert Einstein

"A man does what he must - in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures - and that is the basis of all human morality..." - Winston Churchill

"...the safest course is to do nothing against one's conscience. With this secret, we can enjoy life and have no fear from death..." - Voltaire

""People with clenched fists can not shake hands..." ~ Indira Gandhi

"She thought how strange it would be if she ever said 'Hello' to him; one did not greet oneself each morning."

“Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.” --- Dr. Joyce Brothers

"Iit's not about the intensity of an emotion; it's more about the source..."

""Music is love in search of a voice."

"Music is what feelings sound like..."

"If you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?."

"Some rise by sin, and some by virtue fall."

"You can determine how confident people are by listening to what they don't say about themselves..."

"The world is full of willing people; some willing to work, the rest willing to let them..." :-)

“You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness.”

"I'm a famous writer in a country where nobody reads."
--- John Grisham

True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked...
--------- Erich Segal

“Sometimes questions are more important than answers.”

He who wants to do good knocks at the gate: he who loves finds the door open.
-------------Rabrindranath Tagore

"It's the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary (and also the hardest)..."

I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
------------ Roy Croft

"Feelings are much like waves... We cannot keep them from coming but we can choose which one to surf..."

“One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter...”- James Earl Jones

"Every artist dips his brush in his soul... and paints his own nature into his pictures..."


"Roark: "I don't make comparisons. I never think of myself in relation to anyone else. I just refuse to measure myself as part of anything. I'm an utter egotist.." The Fountainhead

"[Roark to Keating:] If you want my advice, Peter," he said at last, "you've made a mistake already. By asking me. By asking anyone. Never ask people. Not about your work. Don't you know what you want? How can you stand it, not to know?" - The Fountainhead

Tried Enough, Get Ready to get Tested!!!

I have built a wall around me – not to block anyone out…But to see who loves me enough to climb over it…

Some Facebook quiz diagnosed the following answer to some stupid quiz answers of mine – “You have had some bad times, and you don't fall quick. You are the one to make sure that they really care about you before you let them into your heart and life – personally and otherwise…”

Strangely accurate, is it???

Lucky for Her...Where is My PUNCHING BAG??? :-/

Lucky for her that I walked out that day....Or that would have been the most truth-revealing and her real-self-revealing day of her life..........
But there waz nuthing but silence from the very unexceptional me...I did not hear anything from my own side...
Well, you cannot stoop down to that level...

Not very surprising that reaction for me as I had spent - and most of the times endured - all her deep-seated insecurities, bragging, belittling people around her, her jealousies, her complexes, her fantastic lies, bitching about me - for more than 15 years - which grew worse every passing day...

I tried helping her as a close friend but the more I tried to help her by not falling to her offensive, hurtful talks, - the more insentitive and offensive she has become........

Hurting her own people & friends, embarrassing them, looking-down on them, insulting them publicly - are these doings very self-gratifying for her???
Yes, I realised over the years, it is...
She lovez to scrutinize and walk over people's weaknesses, drawbacks and faults.... She delights in downplaying others while over-affirming herself... she delights in these activities - which makes her own self "higher" and "Better" over others....

Why???
Definitely, may be because of her deep-seated insecurities and her own weaknesses...(though we never talk about those even when we feel bad about it)...

If you try to tell her something or try to make her understand some reasoning, she would get fiercely defensive and launch into an attacking mode........I remember one of those dayz when she walked out one me, nearly throwing the food on the table on my face, in front of hundreds of people...
Wat would she had done if I did that or even something 0.00001% of that, to her??? Kill me or may be hurting me most where it hurts???

Do I deserve that after all the things I have done for her sake, sacrificing my own???
Don't I have Emotions??? Or Ego??
I am not Jesus Christ, for Christ's sake!!! :-/

I cannot let go of her as I understand her situation and want to help her... Wat can I do??

She did something unforgivable that day - she belittled my family... of course not for the first time...

She had belittled me and my other friendz innumerable no. of times over the years......So, they try and avoid her nowadays as much as they can - but I cannot...
I am her only friend OR the PUNCHING BAG???

Who will be MY PUNCHING BAG???

Someone...

Someone who trusts me and respects me, my dreams, my needs, my individuality...
Someone who accepts me the way I am....
Someone who is not afraid to show me how much they like me...
Someone who makes me feel special...
Someone who likes to have a good time. A real people person...
Someone who can hold onto his own opinion yet at the same time respects others' points of view...
Someone who means everything he sayz and is honest.....

Most importantly,
Someone..."Not to be judged by someone, just a voice that says - "...I am there no matter what, even if you are the worst person there is just love in my heart for you, mean the world to me, your darkest shades are the ones I love and you remain forever beautiful in the mirror of my heart..."

In other wordz,
Somebody sensitive, intelligent, understanding irrespective of circumstances/situations/people...

Anger!!!

I am so angry with someone today that I don't even know where to begin... You realize that your emotions are justified, but your intensity level is more than some people can handle......... Still, it's not healthy for me to just bury my feelings....
And its like this forever now since God knows when!!!

I must find an appropriate outlet where I can let my energy flow...

For everything, there is a season

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;

A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;

A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;

A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.


Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Sadness or Pitiness??? Hurt or Sensitive???

I dunno wat to write in here......... You dont feel happy about it... do you???
Is it easier to become sad or is it easier to feel pity for the person who mistreats you??? Is it easier to suffer and get hurt or is it easier to become insensitive and throw away your feelingz???
Is it easier to understand your own feelings but not understand that others might also have similar feelings???
Is it easier to misunderstand or not understand the closest of relationships (siblings, friendz, partners) just because you had/having to deal with a bunch of people in your life from whom you hadnt expected a certain kind of behaviour???
Why do people from your closest relationships start behaving with their closest relations in a way you wouldnt expect them to???
Why is it more important to appear stronger and better and not appear weak - EVEN in front of those people who love you the way you are and only trying to help you out if the need arises???
Does appearing stronger necessarily implies for being emotionally stable to the outside world???
Or does it make the person get more respect or feel a little better about himself/herself???
Or saying out bitter wordz - unnecessarily but intentionally - makes you feel stronger, boosts your ego - from the real or imagined swordz that are being plunged at you???

Or is it a game which one wins like this - winning alwayz makez anybody feel happy...So, you win at any cost......... Is it just about winning???

Does it become so deep an emotion that you lose how to differentiate b/w the right and wrong??? b/w the real and the imagined??? b/w the genuine and the fake??? b/w a good judgement and a bad judgement??? b/w being the morally responsible and the irresponsible??? And, Lose their power of moral judgment and feeling???

Itz upsetting that your closest relations (and not some random strangers) make you feel like that...

It is so damn easy!!! Right???
Human emotions have become that frivolous or unimportant???
After all this, you really more disappointed than hurt...

Tides Shift...Wishes Change...

The tides of life shift and you may rediscover your lost connection with those around you... Unfortunately, it might not be as easy and supportive as you wish...
Acknowledge the differences b/w what you want and what you have in such a way that relieves others of being responsible for your happiness....
But being responsible for your own happines does not mean taking up drastic measures...
You should not sacrifice or try to change your own nature and personality to gain importance or respect in otherz eyez... You are your own self... People (who really care about you) are going to love/like you for what you are - and not what they want you to be...How can you change your basic nature - the one you are born and brought up with... You are your own identity....... okkk, I am going into brand identity and all that... :P
But seriously... you know...
But surprisingly, your feelingz can change... which is quite a paradox as your feelings are an intrinsic part of your nature... But here you do have an option (Thank God for that) - as "Feelings are much like waves. We can't keep them from coming, but we can choose which one to surf..."
Our feelings sometimes can be exposed so they can be easily seen, delving deep beneath the surface into the shadows of our desires... Although we may be afraid of what we might find, this can finally unearth the emotional jewels (in form of unfulfilled desires, emotional compromises made) that still lay buried like hidden treasure...
It iz scientifically proven that your negative emotions are more, far more powerful than positive memories - however positive they are - even a very small amount of negativity takes over, completely...

But then, wat are thingz like Hope and Optimism and Self-belief for ??? ;-)
For us to fight through these situationz...Right???

Coincidence...

Wat a coincidence!!! or is it because itz a horoscope at the end of the day???

Interesting (I guess, only for me) for a follow-through -
http://www.noteaccess.com/MODES/Emotive.htm

Affirmation...

Being recognized and appreciated and getting your worth is always going to be important - for everybody - that includez me too... It can be tough for you as giving to others is a part of the development for you... When this isn't noticed, let alone appreciated, it can hurt - to say the least...
I have to do what I can to affirm my generosity for myself...

Time has come to Decide...

"When you don't drink coffee very often, a few sips of latte will get you buzzing. If you're a regular drinker, you may need a triple-espresso before you notice a difference.........."
We develop a greater tolerance towards almost anything we are frequently exposed to........... You have been through a lot of tough times in your life................ You can thus put up with an impressive amount of trouble before you reach your limit...............Something, though, is now pushing you close to the edge of your endurance. You are being stretched........

Wat do you do then???

Well...I have decided to leave my job...a job (which waz my life) where you are not valued, and not respected and unappreciated and no exposure to the outside world ..........
It is something that I had been contemplating since last 2 yearz thinking that thingz might just get better... Rejecting good offers like a fool... Like, when I thought that I might stay on and add some value as there may be lack of resource when people left at the same time...
SAD, that my effortz are not valuable enough... Wasted everybdyz time, including mine, my best yearz...

I know I have tried... really tried, a lot, really hard, with all my heart... for more than 5 yearz...

Wat else can I do ->
1-------Why am I not being promoted - even once - for 5.5 yearz of my work life???
2------- If you still do not understand wat my interestz are, after I am with you for more than 5 yearz...well... wat can I say....
3----- when I get to hear important developments about office and my work from secondary sources ... It iz alwayz being taken "may be she will understand"...
4------- When my work alwayz getz the least/last importance???
5-----------Why I never felt a part of the Team???
6--------So, if I do not speak up, iz it really surprising???
7--------- when I waz given 5-year old & a 3rd-hand laptop when somebdy else waz given a new one??? What waz the visible potential then???
8---------- given the pain and humiliation (verbal/non-herbal, physical/non-physical) I have gone through and still continued putting in my best... AND Never complained of certain behaviours... Did I ever complain about the stolen document, the verbal taunts... NUTHING...
9------ When people lose their patience even before I make my point... watz the point then to speak anywayz... I wonder how and why havent I lost it???
10------ Whatz the point of getting insulted, again and again, from strangerz............not letting that affecting me - the nice feeling of my getting insulted, the nice feeling of back-breaking pain - that I kept enduring all those times... ALL DOWN THE DRAIN...
11-------- when I kept waitin for meetings to happen cancelling all my plans and everything and getz to know at the end of the day (that too after my insistence) that itz not happning or..........???
12-----Times, when I have been given deadlines like 2-hrz to 1 day and nuthing comes out of it - I keep waitng for the feedback...............
13--------when you do not even remember the jobs/thingz I have done during my work period......
14-------if I have to remind you of all that I have done.........

Am I that invisible???

Why am I alwayz the After-Thought???


IS THAT JUST BECAUSE I HAD BEEN UN-COMMUNICATIVE???

...........then there iz no point of my hanging there... I put in and tried with all my heart...I have been doing that for 2 years now...There has been enough self-motivation......... not anymore...... I should have gone for the offerz that came my way........ (Parents are always right!!!)

Anywayz, I needed a break for a couple of monthz... Though it iz not the right (infact the worst time) to quit.......really bad times with the job market...... given my financial status at the moment... But I will manage... I am strong...
BUT I am not hanging in anymore.............

No Pain... Anymore...

I have fallen so many times that I know no pain now; the tears in my eyes have dried and the heart has become a parched wasteland...........
Even if love comes to me seeking, I wouldn't recognize it; such is the miserable condition I am in........After falling so many times, I have lost the willpower to convince my heart that someday love will ensconce it, filling it with tender feelings and make it come alive once again...
I have no arguments left to convince myself...........Every step I take from now on that I take would kill me little by little because we cannot survive without love.......
If I had the power to go back in time to mend things, then perhaps, I would have done some things differently. But its no use cribbing now.............

I was never there when love was around ------- somebody's quote...

Love iz.....

True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked...
--------- Erich Segal

‎"Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down."
------------ Oprah Winfrey

love is most dangerous when it comes late in life...
--------- Lord Byron


When we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness, and call it love - true love
- Robert Fulghum, American author

It's not that I dont remember him... Trust me, I still think of him everyday.
I am not trying to forget...
I like remembering.....that way I wont make the same mistake again.


True love cannot be found where it does not truly exist; nor can it be hidden where it does.
- David Schwimmer, American actor

When you are in love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.
- Dr. Suess, American writer

I kissed my first girl and smoked my first cigarette on the same day. I haven't had time for tobacco since.
- Arturo Toscanini, musician

He who wants to do good knocks at the gate: he who loves finds the door open.
-------------Rabrindranath Tagore

I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.
------------ Roy Croft

The sad thing is, That I never cared much for you,
& When you left it was just like another day.......
But I realise now that you were the only thing left
That linked me to reality, & Now my mind is gone away........

A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous...
---------------- Ingrid Bergmen

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; Our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.
--------------------- Anna Louise Strong

The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual wound.
------------------ Maureen Duffy

It is wrong to think that love comes from long companionship and persevering courtship........ Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity AND unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations.
------------------ Kahlil Gibran

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
------------------ Kahlil Gibran

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken --and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
--------------------- Margaret Mitchell

Where does the family start? It starts with a young man falling in love with a girl -no superior alternative has yet been found...
---------- Sir Winston Churchill

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you...I could walk through my garden forever.
- Alfred Lord Tennyson, poet

Language is for non-lovers, those who are not in love. For lovers, silence is enough language. Without saying anything, they go on speaking.
- Osho


"Why have you been staring at me ever since we met? Because I’m not the Gail Wynand you’d heard about. You see, I love you. And love is exception-making. If you were in love you’d want to be broken, trampled, ordered, dominated, because that’s the impossible, in the inconceivable for you in your relations with people. That would be the one gift, the great exception you’d want to offer the man you loved. But it wouldn’t be easy for you.”
-------- Gail Wynand, one of the richest man in NYC, talking to Dominique (his wife) about love (The Fountainhead)

Greater, Newer, Happier 2009...

I watched Ghajini (on my laptop)....Aamir is so much in love with Asin in the movie. I want someone to love me with that much or even more intensity.......I am just tired and drained out...

Also, my Back iz killing me............

Emotions and People - I am getting more and more choosy and finicky and no longer hang out with random people... I never did! Just that I have decided that I would not care about people who do not care about me... Letz see how much will I be able to manage doing that........
I cannot be mean and bad but I guess I need to be a little bit more practical here............. Again, Letz see........

Actualy, I am sometimez mean and rude to people - at situations when I feel that:
1. They finally deserve it (after upteenth occassions of patience and tolerance and politeness have been put by me)
2. When I feel the need to create distances among myself and the people concerned
3. When I feel that such distances are absolutely necessary - for everybody's good)


As my friendz say - "THNK POSITIVE"............
So, Now...
I am 100% sure that some great thingz gonna happen and 2009 (and onwardz) gonna be my year and my time..... :)))

Quiet Admiration...

by - Kate Dowd -

My soul forms the words,
My heart ensnares them,
Locking them in its warm chambers,
My mind knows these words,
And my fingers write these words,
Yet I cannot form the words...

How is it that I can feel these words,
With so much hope and admiration
Just for you,
Yet my lips can not speak them
To tell you
Of you...

Your face is imprinted in my mind
Never leaving,
Never fading...
Your smile warming my heart,
And your eyes entrancing my soul.

I wish I could form my feelings
Into articulate words
Of love and wonder
And tell you of my feelings,
Let you know of my aspiration
To be held securely in your arms,
Where I long to be,
Sitting serenely with you,
Basking in the sweet resonance of stillness...

But I know that wish is unattainable,
Far out of my reach,
Yet I admire you still,
Yearning that one day you'll notice me
As more than just a girl
But as a young woman
Whose heart you've whisked away
Into the perpetual sky,
Floating along the clouds.

And everyday I linger
Hoping for some acknowledgment,
A fleeting look or a petite hello.
Perhaps to even hear you speak my name
Would bring warmth to my heart
As I wait for you to discern
That I, quietly,
Admire you...

What is Love???

I believe in love...
I also believe that it is not love unless you are ready to lose every bit of yourself for the sake of it; it is not love unless you have lost your sleep, appetite, reason and logic over it; it is not love unless you are desperate to express it; it was not love if you get over it...

Love iz not Predictable...We never know when we fall in love. And no one can tell us either. If it happens, we just know..
Love comes when it wants to.. Love is addictive. It is a high and all we do is hold on to the memory, the look, the connection. Our whole lives are spent searching for that happy high. But love is not a drug "ONLY" for the low times.. Loving relationships require hard work and commitment from both parties.

Love iz a feeling when you like and keep liking each other - even though you know everything about the person.... his/her strengths/likes and most importantly his/her drawbacks/dislikes would not stop you loving him/her.........
If it does, then it is not love.it iz something momentary..........

Love iz what stayz on - not as love but as mutual respect and understanding and respect for each other. It holdz true for any relationship - whether it is your parents, your brother/sister, your freindz, your partner in life...

I believe in true love, it does happen, happened to Romeo and Juliet, but I also know for a fact that.............???

(to be continued...)

Personal Understanding...

Honesty is an asset for relationships - when it is blended with compassion.
Speaking the truth too directly is more likely to push someone away than draw them closer to you...
One haz to think twice about making off-the-cuff remarks that sound funny in your head but can wound a person's sensitive feelings...

I am just ME...(part - I)

I am just me and nobody else........I would prefer to be hated for wat I am, rather than to be loved for wat I am not...

1. I am misunderstood
2. I am a little mad but not that bad at heart
3. I am not brilliant but fairly intelligent
4. My favourite colour is/are Black & Violet - followed by Blue, Maroon, Green.... I do not like lighter tones...
5. I love anything sweet and tangy/lemony
6. I am a super, ultra, excessively romantic
7. I am a super, ultra, excessively sensitive person
8. I am very moody
9. I do not lose my temper easily... but I do get angry easily (yes, there is a difference)
10. I am a great listener (and) I listen to what others have to say and I make my own decisionz.......
11. I never forget anything – not even a moment - ; I do not forget things easily…
12. Neither do I forgive bad/rude/immoral behaviour
13. I am not a good conversationalist
14. I have always struggled with words... I never find the right expression at the right time... Hence, people always misunderstand me...
15. I am not good in dealing with strangers
16. Emotional Comfort is the biggest thing for me, given any relationship (professional or personal)
17. I need to experience in real, how thingz are...Virtual stuff do not work for me...
18. Self-Respect (one-to-one), Loyalty and Independence to think are few of my biggest motivators
19. I hate double-standards (ppl who say something on your face and say/do something completely different when you turn your back), back-biters, excessive pride, liars...
20. I detest fakes, any kind of pretence, show-off or cynicism
21. I hate people who are ready to give opinion but do not see that the same can apply to them as well
22. I hate those who are too casual about their relationships
23. I hate Politics...
24. I do not respect those who do not respect people and don’t value emotions & sensitivities of otherz
25. I am a bad bad bad, tiring, finicky shopper
26. I am an “extremes” person
27. I am a difficult person - you have to really love/like me to be with me
28. I am good at understanding but not-so-brilliant at expressing
29. My loved onez are my biggest strength and weakness
30. I will die for you... I can kill you too...
31. I am good at PJs
32. I am sarcastic (at times)
33. I love mushy songs and romantic (comedy or drama) movies
34. I am hopelessly in love with my antique camera
AND
............. I am a bad writer ;-)


This is partly the not-so-obvious, not-so-visible me...

So, Love me or hate me...


to be continued...

Pulling the Threads...

Every piece of my life seems to be pulling apart at the seams lately...People only feel when it happens to them...Life As We Know It...It couldn't be any more realistic...

Should Do vs. Could Do

Let me not deceive Myself...

I am tired of waiting for something that never seems to happen....

Yet I still cannot dissipate the tension unless I push myself forward....
Fortunately, if I am willing, I can free myself to explore my future without having to carry so much weight from unresolved darkness...

I Wish...

When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]

When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she start's cussing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared
[ Protect her ]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold her and play with her fingers ]

When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says it is over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if she is not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you.............

Quality Over Quantity...

It really is quality that matters, not quantity...
This can be especially important to hold close when it comes to the number of friends you have in your life...
You can find yourself lonely in a warehouse full of acquaintances. It only takes one close and loyal friend to improve the quality of your life...

A good life means much more!!!

When I Dream At Night...

I have been in love and been alone
I have traveled over many miles to find a home
There’s that little place inside of me
That I never thought could take control of everything
But now I just spend all my time
With anyone who makes me feel the way she does

‘cause I only feel alive when I dream at night
Even though she’s not real it’s all right
‘cause I only feel alive when I dream at night
Every move that she makes holds my eyes
And I fall for her every time

I’ve so many things I want to say
I’ll be ready when the perfect moment comes my way
I had never known what’s right for me
‘til the night she opened up my heart and set it free
But now I just spend all my time
With anyone who makes me feel the way she does


‘cause I only feel alive when I dream at night
Even though she’s not real it’s all right
‘cause I only feel alive when I dream at night
Every move that she makes holds my eyes
And I fall for her every time.....

Marc Anthony

True??? May Be...

"Eyes speak more when a heart starts listening to someone silently...And life seems to be more exiting when someone start reading eyes silently…"

List of My Thingz...

THINGZ I LIKE
Assertiveness
Intelligence
Humour
Reading
Movies
Music
With Freindz
Buying Stuff for My Loved Onez
Walking in the Rain
Getting up late, really late (particularly, on Sundays)
Beaches
Goa (Beaches)
Dancing
Psychology
Quizzing
Cricket
Tennis
Soccer
Figure Skating
Gymnastics
Cars
Tea
Lemon
Strawberry Ice-Cream
Space
Black / Violet / Maroon / Green / Blue
Levi's
Nike
Dark Chocolates


TURN ONS
Sensitivity
A Strong Personality
Sarcasm (sometimez)
Smile on My Loved Onez Faces
Dancing
Thrills
Surprises
Good Sense of Humour


THINGZ I HATE
Obligations
(Unnecessary) Rudeness
Wasting your Worth where it does not matter (and unable to do something about it)
Acid Rock / Metal
Butter-Scotch Ice-Cream
Milk
Eggs
Rice
Adidas (Too Masculine)



TURN OFFS
Double Standards
Insensitiveness
Liars
Pretence
Fakes
Politics
Show-Offs
Hypocrisy
Chauvinism
Excessive Self-Satisfaction (A little of it builds your confidence and character, in a way, but too much of it is "too-much")
Getting Tanned
Getting up in the Morningz

Getting Deceived by Your Own Feelingz

Your feelings may deceive you...........So, be careful of getting too wrapped up in your own drama........
Perhaps you feel yourself getting pushed and pulled in directions that you don't feel comfortable with........
You may tolerate this tension for a while without expressing your feelings about it........
This policy is extremely dangerous, for it may give others the impression that it is OK to continue treating you the way they do......

Importance of a "NO"

Self-confidence is better than low self-esteem, but it can trick you into saying "yes" when you should be conserving your energy by saying "no."

It's NOT about doing anything to gain approval from anyone else..........ALL the TIME...

It's about staying focused on the most positive aspects of your everyday life and deriving satisfaction from life's simple pleasures...For your loved onez and yourself as well...

Life Quotes...

Some have been thought brave because they were afraid to run away.

Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.

You can determine how confident people are by listening to what they don't say about themselves.

The more you seek security, the less of it you have. But the more you seek opportunity, the more likely it is that you will achieve the security that you desire.

People know you for what you've done, not for what you plan to do.

Please all, and you will please none.

There is no pillow so soft as a clear conscience.

There is no shortage of good days. It is good lives that are hard to come by.

To believe your own thought, to believe that what is true for you in our private heart is for all men - that is genius.

Paradox in Life...

I waz thinking about writing on something - which I precisely forgot when I started writing about it........it iz happening to me often nowadayz - reasonz known only to myself........ May be it iz a Psychological block...
Such a paradox, isn't it?
You are forgetting something you want to remember and cannot forget something you do not want to...........You are nice and polite to people who do not deserve you AND screaming at those who genuinely cares for you....

Defies one's intuition...
Talking of one's intuition, there iz so much going inside my mind at the moment - about my life, my Family, my Work - I know wat to do exactly, why is it happening what is happening - I am just not doing it.....I am not handling it the way I should........I will do something - have to - if not for myself, then, aleast for Family.......

I waz talking to a very close friend of mine, about all these thingz "my life", "her life" - we are at such a point in our livez that it iz a "Make or Break" situation.....she iz so much better at handling this..... I wish I am like that.....

But, I am not that bad also..... I know that I am a strong individual.....but may be I am not as strong as I used to be..... I often talk about how strong and polite and tolerant I am (towards people and situaionz)... it could be true, could be otherwise....May be that I am soooooo tolerant because I actually am (some truth there???) or am I a little toooo soft for myself???

Also,
"Do little thingz called "Appreciation", "Motivation", "NOT being taken for granted", "Able/Independence to do what you want to do" help, in the process??????????
Take my work, for instance....... (Minita, Deya know wat I am saying - if they are reading thiz........Thanx babez, for listening to me forever on thiz...)

Minita waz telling me something last night and I will quote her:
"Only two thingz stay with you for your life - One, wat YOU do to yourself and your life and, Second, You Mother........Nothing else remain permanent..."
So very true........

I can see wat iz happening to me and it iz only wat I am doing to myself and how I am handling it.....

To get into a lighter mode......
Last Sunday, I went to see my freind Deya perform for Ashley Lobo at Siri Fort... and I loved it.. the performance, the costumez, everything..... As I myself sooooo very loooooove dancing .....
Even though I still do not see any connection b/w the theme and the performance, as per say.... ;-) .....
..... But the dance per say waz damn good..... I particularly liked the social dance (Underworld) and the Mix of All Dances..... I want to join Ashley Lobo...

Ohh...
I wonder wat happened to that MBTI Training Course stuff.....need to check on that...

I waz also wondering that I had been spening a lot of "Green" these dayz.... need to put a stop on that as well.....

I guess I have talked a lot for a day.....

So.... ASTA LA VISTA .......

Elasticity of Dd & t Price one Pays for it

"You don't drink coffee very often, a few sips of latte will get you buzzing. If you're a regular drinker, you may need a triple-espresso before you notice a difference..........We develop a greater tolerance towards almost anything we are frequently exposed to........... You have been through a lot of tough times in your life................ You can thus put up with an impressive amount of trouble before you reach your limit...............Something, though, is now pushing you close to the edge of your endurance. You are being stretched........"

Isn't It Not True???

Some people think you are wonderful.
Others don't think it; they know it.
That's why they don't like you. Inwardly, they are envious.
They recognise that you are exceptional and they cannot find an easy way to make themselves feel better by identifying some key weakness in your personality.
This makes them feel small. It also makes them feel cross.
Then, they get cross with themselves for being cross - and that makes them dislike you all the more!!!!!!!!!!